I'm turning into a 3.0 Bodak...

[Cicciograna]

...because I noticed that sometimes, and at an increasing rate, I happen to find myself staring into nothingness, while my eyes witness scenes from my past, from my joyful childhood, and as my remembrances fill my senses I'm almost cut out of the world (http://bquot.com/6zz).
It is fascinating, but also worrying, since I'm already missing the past and I'm only 27, with an entire life to live.

Does this happen to anybody of you? Do you think I should care less for the past and more for the present/future? Or is it entirely natural to recall, from time to time and with great intensity, happy moments from the past?

[Eldan]

Oh yes. Just recently my little brother reminded me that I'm old. He's eighteen, I'm twenty-four. But according to him, I always acted like an old person. Thinking of the past and, to quote him again, "too responsible and careful to enjoy life".

Sometimes, I also get nostalgia attacks, but not in the "man, my childhood was so great" way. Those happen, but are rarer. What I get are attacks of "Man, I'm already twenty-four and I still haven't done X, Y, or Z".

[thubby]

my childhood thoroughly sucked. so no. but then, im still every bit the escapist, so *shrugs*

[Asta Kask]

Am I the only thinking of this song? (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BqYEGt1iBW4)

Maybe I'm just showing my age.

[arguskos]

I do this too. I think of it as the Drell Flashback thing, since I get distant, and see/hear/taste/smell/feel everything in the memory. It's actually kinda alarming, since I completely space out and basically just vanish into memory for 30 seconds or so.

Also, it's somewhat creepy for other people, since it happens during conversations sometimes, especially about certain topics. :smallyuk:

[Arminius]

I get something similar to that feeling. It is not limited to my memories, though I do replay those in my head too. I was rather isolated as a child and developed a rather vivid imagination as a result. I can see historic buildings and objects as they looked(highly subject to my knowledge of how they actually looked), I can see and explore fantasy worlds from books, shows, or my of own creation. I still do it a lot, but it has been lessening for me of late. I finally have a semblance of control over my life, and unpleasant as it can get, I think it is better to focus one's mind on the real world. But it is still nice to be able to go someplace else when things get overwhelming.

[Mando Knight]

...because I noticed that sometimes, and at an increasing rate, I happen to find myself staring into nothingness, while my eyes witness scenes from my past, from my joyful childhood, and as my remembrances fill my senses I'm almost cut out of the world (http://bquot.com/6zz).
It is fascinating, but also worrying, since I'm already missing the past and I'm only 27, with an entire life to live.
...Would you say the scenery you've overlooked is 110 million (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lsj0mY13t9s)?

Also, the lyrical dissonance version (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ls7oOxUBbYQ)!

[Giggling Ghast]

The past only comes back to taunt or humiliate me. I keep telling it to piss off and leave me alone, but it never listens. :smallfrown:

[Cicciograna]

Besides, I noticed that music plays an important role in what happens to me: listening to particular songs, hearing certain sounds and melodies helps me slipping in these sorts of walking trances... If I'm really turning into a 3.0 Bodak I hope I'll never meet an enemy Bard :smallbiggrin:


...Would you say the scenery you've overlooked is 110 million (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lsj0mY13t9s)?

Also, the lyrical dissonance version (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ls7oOxUBbYQ)!

I do not have the slightest idea of what this stuff is :smallredface:

[Morganatic]

Same. Getting real tired of making eye contact with people only to kill them with my DC 15 death gaze, and reanimating them as copies of myself. Half this town is now extraplanar undead humanoids. Send (blind) help.

Seriously, though, OP, I think that unless they've had a particularly unhappy or difficult childhood, a lot of people look back wistfully to an idealised, happy early time. I think the best way of getting 'over' it, or back on track, is to make sure that the life you're living now is full of things that you feel proud of, or that make your life meaningful. It's not a matter of emphasis, and what you should care about or focus on, it's a matter of action. Sorry if that sounds a little 'boot-straps-y'.