Devotion Paladin as absurd hero

[zeek0]

Hello!

After reading the vast majority of this thread about paladin ethics:
www.giantitp.com/forums/showthread.php?478286-Paladin-of-Devotion-vs-Vengeance-What-really-matters/page18
I've decided to retreat further into abject existentialism.

Enter the devotion paladin as absurd hero. He is neither good nor evil. He has abandoned all hope. The oaths he holds are circumstantial, and the acts he takes are performances.

Here he is:
Name: Sisyphus
Race: Dark Elf (an underground dweller)
Background: Criminal (he killed an Arab)
Proficiencies: Religion and Survival
Equipment: traveller's clothes, chain mail, and chainsaw (for use against riflemen)
Base Stats:
Str: 14
Dex: 10
Con: 15
Int: 13
Wis: 8
Cha: 12

Yet somehow there is happiness in the struggle.

[OldTrees1]

I don't understand the absurd, would you explain it and then explain the absurd hero? I know the definition of the absurd is the clash between the human desire to find meaning in life and their inability to find any. However I have never really seen such as clash since morality seems a solid answer to the quest for meaning even if we as humans are incapable of knowing right from wrong despite being tasked with the duties of a moral agent.

[Balyano]

Perhaps he should really make a show of it. Act like the ginyu force, the great saiyaman, sailor moon, ect. really ham it up, but just like the great clown pagliacci, he's dying inside

[JakOfAllTirades]

Dudley Do-Right would make an excellent Paladin.