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2018-07-27, 04:53 PM
So I was reading through the Tests Of Lolth (http://www.realmshelps.net/charbuild/races/elf/drow2.shtml) as part of making a backstory for a Drider Monk character, and I find myself with...questions. A bunch of things that don't seem to add up, that would be noticeable to the drow in question, a bunch of things they'd wish to understand.
1) For those unwilling to read the link above for whatever reason, the Test of the Drider more or less goes as follows: when drow get powerful enough (here reading as "6th level"), they've proven themselves to have high self-confidence bordering on arrogance, and the test is "okay but just so we're clear you understand being powerful doesn't mean I won't smite you for being a little ****?" The point of it is essentially an ego check on the drow in question, making sure they know that no matter how powerful they get, Lolth still holds higher rank. So the way she tests this is building up your fear of spiders with nightmares of being eaten alive from the inside out, to the point that even seeing spider imagery (like that which is ubiquitous in drow society) shakes you up a bit.
So here's where it gets weird for me: if your reaction to your spider goddess sending you dreams of being eaten alive by her spider minions specifically to give you a severe case of arachnophobia and remind you that your arrogance has to have limits...is to say "eh **** that I'm not afraid of bugs and you can't drive me out of town with silly nightmares", then congratulations, you passed the test! Wait...okay, to be clear, fleeing town over a little arachnophobia shows maybe you actually believe Lolth would totally murder you and you don't wanna be around where that's more easily done, but why does the theological equivalent of refusing to flinch work here, when it seems the whole point of the test is Lolth making you flinch because she wants to keep you at least a little humble?
2) Alright, so this is the part that's more relevant to roleplaying the character: namely, how the character interprets being transformed into a drider. For starters, it seems to me that the Tests Of Lolth aren't exclusive to spellcasters, but are just something that happens for powerful drow regardless of ability. This means a non-spellcaster who becomes a drow can now cast...and that can very well mean gaining cleric spellcasting using Lolth's domains. As the obvious choice for a monk, the cleric casting is what I'm going for, but now I'm trying to think about what that means in-character (along with other issues).
Being a drow marks you as a failure, a disappointment, a disgrace in the eyes of Lolth, and drow society reacts accordingly. But then...if I am a failure, why has she made me stronger in every conceivable way? If I am a disappointment, why has she granted me a measure of her divine power in the form of cleric casting? If I am a disgrace, why has she remade me in her image? And even "ex"-cleric driders aren't prevented from continuing to advance their cleric casting by being made into driders!
To be clear, I'm hoping to get to explore some of these things in-game, and will be discussing them with the DM once they ever respond to my posts but for now I'm wondering if there's some part of deeper Faerun lore I'm missing that satisfies my curiosity on this matter. Is it just "Lolth is Stupid Chaotic Evil and her tests are arbitrarily cruel and mean nothing", or is there some deeper meaning to her empowering the failures, granting them spellcasting, remaking them in her image, and forcing them to become self-dependent outside of drow society, especially when the victory condition of the test they failed seems to make no sense?
1) For those unwilling to read the link above for whatever reason, the Test of the Drider more or less goes as follows: when drow get powerful enough (here reading as "6th level"), they've proven themselves to have high self-confidence bordering on arrogance, and the test is "okay but just so we're clear you understand being powerful doesn't mean I won't smite you for being a little ****?" The point of it is essentially an ego check on the drow in question, making sure they know that no matter how powerful they get, Lolth still holds higher rank. So the way she tests this is building up your fear of spiders with nightmares of being eaten alive from the inside out, to the point that even seeing spider imagery (like that which is ubiquitous in drow society) shakes you up a bit.
So here's where it gets weird for me: if your reaction to your spider goddess sending you dreams of being eaten alive by her spider minions specifically to give you a severe case of arachnophobia and remind you that your arrogance has to have limits...is to say "eh **** that I'm not afraid of bugs and you can't drive me out of town with silly nightmares", then congratulations, you passed the test! Wait...okay, to be clear, fleeing town over a little arachnophobia shows maybe you actually believe Lolth would totally murder you and you don't wanna be around where that's more easily done, but why does the theological equivalent of refusing to flinch work here, when it seems the whole point of the test is Lolth making you flinch because she wants to keep you at least a little humble?
2) Alright, so this is the part that's more relevant to roleplaying the character: namely, how the character interprets being transformed into a drider. For starters, it seems to me that the Tests Of Lolth aren't exclusive to spellcasters, but are just something that happens for powerful drow regardless of ability. This means a non-spellcaster who becomes a drow can now cast...and that can very well mean gaining cleric spellcasting using Lolth's domains. As the obvious choice for a monk, the cleric casting is what I'm going for, but now I'm trying to think about what that means in-character (along with other issues).
Being a drow marks you as a failure, a disappointment, a disgrace in the eyes of Lolth, and drow society reacts accordingly. But then...if I am a failure, why has she made me stronger in every conceivable way? If I am a disappointment, why has she granted me a measure of her divine power in the form of cleric casting? If I am a disgrace, why has she remade me in her image? And even "ex"-cleric driders aren't prevented from continuing to advance their cleric casting by being made into driders!
To be clear, I'm hoping to get to explore some of these things in-game, and will be discussing them with the DM once they ever respond to my posts but for now I'm wondering if there's some part of deeper Faerun lore I'm missing that satisfies my curiosity on this matter. Is it just "Lolth is Stupid Chaotic Evil and her tests are arbitrarily cruel and mean nothing", or is there some deeper meaning to her empowering the failures, granting them spellcasting, remaking them in her image, and forcing them to become self-dependent outside of drow society, especially when the victory condition of the test they failed seems to make no sense?