yeah, it's like your best friend came over to your house, completely trashed it, ate all the food and drank all the drinks and then spit in your face, I'd bet that he wasn't the person who you made your best friend anymore
roy himself says it best on the next page: I don't know wether you started out as durkon and turned into this, or you're just squating in his corpse
it's less: "I now know the intrinsic mechanics of vampirism" and more "the durkon who I knew and considered my friend would never say such things and as such you must be somebody else"