LGBTAI+ #58 Infinity 2.0: The Darth Arminius Apology Thread

[Heliomance]

That would have been amusing, especially if you had still ended up nerdy and posting here.

Being a celebrity makes that kinda thing hard. I certainly wouldn't have been able to post as many photos as I have.

[Astrella]

Yay, got my bloodwork back and I was a bit worried about it since I had an orchi earlier this year and was scared no longer taking anti-androgens would mean higher testosterone, and while it went up a bit, ti's still in normal cis women's range, and so is my estrogen, my estrogen values even went up a bit. :)

[Bobbybobby99]

Hi everyone! I don't post in this thread very often, but I figured I ought to stop by . Still gay, though I'm less confident in that than I used to be; I'm beginning to suspect that I just prefer guys over girls, and mentally flinch away from the idea of liking girls as well because of ingrained negative societal associations with bisexuals.

[Grytorm]

Well I had a bad dream where I was really dysphoric. But then I had a dream in which my grandmother was queen of England and she comforted me. Which helped make me feel better. (Her throne was a comfy armchair).

[Irish Musician]

Yay, got my bloodwork back and I was a bit worried about it since I had an orchi earlier this year and was scared no longer taking anti-androgens would mean higher testosterone, and while it went up a bit, ti's still in normal cis women's range, and so is my estrogen, my estrogen values even went up a bit. :)

Yay! *Happy Dance*

Hi everyone! I don't post in this thread very often, but I figured I ought to stop by . Still gay, though I'm less confident in that than I used to be; I'm beginning to suspect that I just prefer guys over girls, and mentally flinch away from the idea of liking girls as well because of ingrained negative societal associations with bisexuals.

Well, love who you want to love and don't worry so much about what society says. If you feel attraction to boys and girls.....then go for it! I know easier said than done, but only you know who you are attracted to, no one else can answer that question but you. And what that answer is, is perfectly fine.

Well I had a bad dream where I was really dysphoric. But then I had a dream in which my grandmother was queen of England and she comforted me. Which helped make me feel better. (Her throne was a comfy armchair).

Well, at least the Queen and the chair was nice and comforting! Hope you are feeling better from the bad part of the dream.

[Eldest]

I felt like there were tiny differences after 2 weeks. So might actually be changes!

[Xihirli]

Finally realized to myself that I was a girl.
Well, realized was a long time ago.
But the state of denial is mostly dead now.

[Asmodean_]

Happy to hear all the good news! This calls for a round of imaginary cake!

[Xihirli]

Cake is nice.

[Asmodean_]

Here you go.


As stated previously the cake is imaginary so you'll have to imagine the cake yourself.

Hey I'm on a budget alright?

[Simsimillia]

Finally realized to myself that I was a girl.
Well, realized was a long time ago.
But the state of denial is mostly dead now.

I came to the same realization about seven months ago. Took me six more months to come out to the first person (a lesbian friend of mine). Now I'm trying to work up the courage to tell my mum. I know...or well at least I'm very sure of it that she'll be supporting and all, but I'm still really scared to tell her. There is the rest bit of doubt, that she wont be cool about it. It's weird, I know that I have to tell her at some point, because in those six months I kept it all to myself I wasn't well at all.

[Astrella]

Mrrr, talk with surgeon tomorrow, nervous cause I'm scared he'll be poopy about me having gained weight and since I still have a lot of anxiety / fears about whether I want bottom surgery.

[Xihirli]

You don't have to if you're worried. Just go for the body that feels right for you.

[FallenFallcrest]

I'm sorry for potentially derailing anything by this, but that star... oh my gosh. Laughed way too much. Teachers should give that to students not worthy of a real gold star, but gosh darn it, they tried! Can I use that?

[Iethloc]

I got my ears pierced recently. It's a pretty small thing, but I still feel really good about it.

There's also a chance I'll be able to get some good money for other transition-related stuff in the next few months. I've been looking into local Certified Nursing Assistant classes. It's actually the first time I've felt any enthusiasm at all for a potential job.

[noparlpf]

I'm sorry for potentially derailing anything by this, but that star... oh my gosh. Laughed way too much. Teachers should give that to students not worthy of a real gold star, but gosh darn it, they tried! Can I use that?

I mean, it's not mine. It's a meme/reaction image I've seen around tumblr (and probably other sites).

[Hollow]

Like to post in support of all the people on the tread going through issues right now, not lgbt myself but I recently helped a close friend overcome some struggles and now have a deeper respect for the community as a whole. keep on trucking people.

[JusticeZero]

Any thoughts on how to figure out who I am? I thought about changing my avatar here, but I don't have enough fruits from self reflection to know what to ask for instead. Which is an issue in all sorts of ways outside of here right now, really.

[Xihirli]

Any thoughts on how to figure out who I am? I thought about changing my avatar here, but I don't have enough fruits from self reflection to know what to ask for instead. Which is an issue in all sorts of ways outside of here right now, really.

How to find out who you are? As in, gender questioning? Or philosophically?

[JusticeZero]

How to find out who you are? As in, gender questioning? Or philosophically?

As in, things that are not my gender. I figured out fairly quickly that huge portions of my interests, hobbies, and personality were either part of my facade or only 'interesting' because they relieved dysphoria. Once I started detoxing, they crumbled and vanished, but I don't know what is in its place. And it's made worse by that frame-lag memory effect where things pretransition are harder to remember in context because the cues are different.

[AmberVael]

Any thoughts on how to figure out who I am? I thought about changing my avatar here, but I don't have enough fruits from self reflection to know what to ask for instead. Which is an issue in all sorts of ways outside of here right now, really.

This sounds like lame advice to me, but: try things?

There's no divination or analysis that will speed things up, in my opinion. And I say this as someone who really loves to wait and ponder and analyze. So, just experimenting with a lot of different things is probably the way to go. Be aware of yourself and your reactions, and build an idea of yourself from there.

[Syless]

I'm planning a week-long trip to Denmark in a couple of weeks, just thought I'd ask any trans people who have traveled with hormones-- should I bring the hormones with me or is there too much risk of hassle at the airport, better to just not take them for a week?

I have no idea of international travel is harder to deal with, but assuming it's at all possible (even if it's a bit of a hassle), try and bring them with you. Going off them, even briefly, is profoundly unpleasant and will make your trip less enjoyable.

[Lissou]

I don't know about hormones specifically, but I have traveled internationally with medicine. Have your prescription available on you and a copy with the meds (and unless you need to take them while on the plane, keep them in your checked luggage) and there shouldn't be any trouble. Make sure they're clearly labeled and match the prescription. Getting off meds and back on them is not generally recommended, I don't know how exactly it works for hormones, but I would avoid it if possible.

If you're really worried, you can also ask your doctor to send you a note to also keep on you saying that you need to have your meds with you when you travel.

[noparlpf]

I just travelled Europe with two bottles of amphetamines and nobody ever stopped me to check what meds I had or to ask for a prescription. Besides, even if anybody checks them, most airport security agents have no idea what most meds are for. That said, it's probably a good idea to bring a copy of your prescriptions and/or a doctor's note explaining the prescriptions with you, and always bring meds in carry-on in case something happens to checked bags.

[Delusion]

I have traveled on plane within EU with all my medicines without prescriptions (which would have been hassle anyway as I don't even have paper prescriptions) on multiple occasions. I just putt all the meds in small see-through plastic bags and take them out of (not-plastic) bag during the the security check.

Never had any trouble with them.

[Iethloc]

I just shaved off all of my facial hair for the first time ever. I almost look like a different person! One with cuts on her face from shaving. I still don't regret it.

[ArlEammon]

I need someone to help me realize that just because bad things happen I'm not a bad person.

[Asmodean_]

::offers existential-crisis hugs::

The universe doesn't give a **** about people, it just happens. Random **** can happen to anyone at any time. In insurance, they call it "Act of God" - something that couldn't be predicted or prepared for. Personally I feel that since it can't be predicted or prepared for, there's no use worrying about it.

And whether or not you're a good or bad person doesn't depend on the cards you're dealt, it only depends on how you play them.

[ArlEammon]

Can we talk?

[Xihirli]

Of course. Feel free to speak your mind.