Quote Originally Posted by MountainKing View Post
Not asking for advice or anything. I just need to say this somewhere... and now that I've come back here, I feel at home again.

Without A in my life, I feel empty. I'm conflicted on how to deal with it, but deal with it I will. I don't like the feeling, but... it motivates me. Toward what end, I don't know yet. Only time will tell.
Welcome to the human emotion "love". Good luck. At least you feel motivation.