Either yesterday or the day before, I came to the startling realization that for a long time, I was so busy pouring energy into being concerned about A's life and general well-being, that I almost completely forgot how to put energy into my OWN life, let alone remembering how that actually FELT.

Even considering that I still suffer periodic episodes of heartbreak and pain, I have to say... this has actually been a good week. Today itself, was a good day.

It's even more startling to hear myself saying those words. "I had a good day." Like I forgot how that even worked.

So, as a word of advice to others who, like myself, didn't realize that: don't do it. Give your SO your all, of course. Give to them 100%. But never, ever forget how to live your life.