Quote Originally Posted by AuthorGirl View Post
What did I do back then? I played D&D (with the wonderful friend who is now my ex) and wrote (usually talking about it with my only writer friend, who is now my ex). What friends did I lean on? Mostly the one who's now my ex. And he's still such a good friend. And I want to be someone he can count on, someone who makes him happy, even just as a person.

Fake it 'til you make it is good advice, though, thanks. And thanks for the hugs.
I would strongly advise on not forcing yourself to activities that include him, no matter how much it's something that you used to do. You're clearly hurt and need your space, and that's what comes first at this point. Not saying you should stop being friends with him, no, but I think in this case it's probably good if you distance yourself by a smidge to let yourself think and heal.