It's honestly an odd feeling to realise that I've not been this happy in a relationship since 2011-2012. I've had good relationships with good moods and all, but... the genuine happiness I feel is something I realise I've missed for the past few years. At the same time it's an incredible feeling, yet I feel sort of guilty for not feeling the same level of joy in my "in-between" relationships. Makes me question why I didn't enjoy those relationships as much from a really negative perspective.