I had become very disillusioned with working towards a better society, and the color test I came across during this time, I was Sultai. Going to Bant is a reversion, but once I had clawed my way into a somewhat stable and physically comfortable position in life, I no longer needed to be so driven to dominate and destroy people who wanted to hurt me or put me down. I can afford to work towards a world where people work together for the benefit of everyone else, at least in part because I am able to separate myself from the system somewhat.