Confusing post, eh? The gist is this: I've taken some of the advice given here and so I've tried to not be so glum. But today and yesterday just...put me in a very bad mood again.
I think another of my recent emotional issues stem from my long run of complete lack of self esteem. Events from yesterday and today only reinforced it.
And the fact that I have no friends anymore is probably doing me a number, as well.