Originally Posted by
CoffeeIncluded
...I feel this is my fault though. I feel like ever since I stepped into this thread, all I've done is mess things up and make things worse. I feel as if I'm the only one responsible for this madness and Roland's repeated warnings. Every time I try to make things better, or watch my behavior, I slip back into my repeated patterns no matter how I try. And even though I never wish to, I know that my apologies are quickly starting to ring hollow, no matter how sincere they may be.
I should do more, and I know I should, and yet I don't. The blame lies with me.
Roland, feel free to pin this on me. I'm the one who is responsible.