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Thread: Personal Woes and Advice 6
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2020-03-17, 10:31 AM (ISO 8601)
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Re: Personal Woes and Advice 6
I am glad to hear that you feel that things are looking up for you. Surprise shifts are never fun to go through.
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2020-03-17, 05:49 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-18, 07:36 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-18, 09:30 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-19, 05:33 PM (ISO 8601)
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I now feel silly, for writing a poem as an opener to talk to someone on online dating. Mind you, it wasn't a love poem. (They had a question as a conversation starter, and I'd been reading/listening to the Poetic Edda, so I decided to try and answer in norse Ballad style.)
But I still feel silly for putting like... twenty minutes effort into making a poem that very well might never get read if they just decide they don't like my face.
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2020-03-19, 10:48 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-20, 11:00 AM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-21, 05:41 PM (ISO 8601)
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Hey everybody. I'm very down at the dumps today because I hear some horrible news that my friend told me on the phone that his mother got the coronavirus. I was very shocked to hear this news. I'm trying to stay on the positive side but I'm really hoping his mother will feel better.
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2020-03-21, 06:14 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-21, 06:20 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-21, 10:38 PM (ISO 8601)
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Y'know, after having a lot of alone time to be introspective with, I think I figured something out about myself. I think that the reason I'm more comfortable with people just needing me to do things for them than I am with them just liking me might have to do with how I process rejection.
If someone just needs me to do things like help them move furniture, bring pizza or something, it feels less personal when they decide that they're done with me. Either they don't need my help anymore or they found someone else that can do it better than me.
If someone wants me around because they like me... When they decide they're done with me, it's because they decide that they don't like me anymore or don't want me around anymore. For me, it's hard to not take that personally. It's hurtful and it feels like genuine rejection.
If I could think of rejection as being a possibility, rather than an inevitability I think I could actually accept love when it's shown to me. Unfortunately... it hasn't worked out well for me.
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2020-03-23, 01:38 PM (ISO 8601)
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So anyway I called my friend on the phone today about the update of her mother health and it's not looking too good. She's hooked in a machine to keep her alive.
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2020-03-23, 01:58 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-23, 02:03 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-24, 11:03 AM (ISO 8601)
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So, between the rejection I'm dealing with and the physical isolation, no school, no work, I'm spending more time in my own brain. I forgot that my brain's a pretty dark, scary place.
For a while now, I've been feeling like the best thing I can do for anyone is to not exist. Yeah. I'm going there. I'm sorry.
Spoiler: TW: Thoughts of suicideI called the national suicide hotline for the first time. I've felt bad before, but I can't remember the last time I've felt this bad. I feel pathetic and useless, and I can't get a certain thought out of my head-- If I died, how long before anyone noticed?
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2020-03-24, 12:01 PM (ISO 8601)
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I cannot find the exact words, so I will have to paraphrase the best I can:
You are not your work.
You are not your productivity.
You hold value beyond all of these things.
Wisdom dictates that the death of a person is the same as the death of the world, for the loss of one person stops the incalculable changes from now into the future.
Not just because of work and what you know. But just by you being You.
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I believe that the undeniable fact of existence is that no one can stand where you are. The paths of life takes us over many mountains and valleys, but always following our own trails. We can offer advice based on where we've been, but no matter the similarities, we cannot offer advice based on where _you_ are.
Why all the preamble? First to say that you are valuable just for being you. Today, at the bottom of the valley that might not feel like much, but it is true. Second to say that while I hope that my words lend some help, I do not know your full experience to perfectly support you. But I'll give it my best.
From what you've written here and elsewhere, I gather that you are distancing, or losing many friendships within your current circle (or a current circle). Do you have others that you can reach out to? Friends? Family? Neighbours? You may not be able to physically see and connect, but phone calls or video calls may help you reach out.
If you don't think outreach to those you know would work, I would suggest looking into support groups. Not even therapy, to give you tools to process your thoughts, but as a lifeline and anchor outside your head. This can be anything, including online game night to play and interact with other people. You are not the only one who social isolation is difficult to deal with.
Outside of social groups, do you have anything that you enjoy focusing on? Not necessarily anything with an end product in mind (art etc.), but something that allows you to mentally and emotionally rest. For example, I enjoy reading and listening to music. This allows me to stop thinking about things outside if "Now" and just relax and enjoy being. Find what you can focus on as far as self enjoyment and embrace it. Quarantine gives you time to do so.
Best wishes,
Mith
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2020-03-25, 10:33 AM (ISO 8601)
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So anyway I called my friend on the phone today about the updated of his mother health and he said that her health is in critical condition. I'm very sad at the moment.
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2020-03-25, 10:47 AM (ISO 8601)
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The short answer is no. I don't really have anyone that I can reach out to at the moment. A longer answer is that this forum is about all I have right now as the bottom fell out of my safety net.
Right now I'm having a hard time focusing on anything. The only thing I can kind of do is clean the floor and tidy the kitchen.
How's your friend holding up?
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2020-03-25, 10:53 AM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-25, 12:09 PM (ISO 8601)
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Ok. I only ask because I know people who focus on absences without always noticing those who are still around. But again, you know your situation better than I do.
Focus might be the wrong word, but I find that music drowns out those negative thoughts and feelings for me. It's not that I focus on music to exclude but that it erases everything else for a time.
I know for some other people, an exercise schedule also fills that idea of a routine, a sort of inertia that keeps them going through tough times. Again that is why I mention even online gaming groups as another source of "schedule" to keep things moving. You've lost your old schedules and routines, so I hope this gives some ideas to replace them with new ones.
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2020-03-25, 12:47 PM (ISO 8601)
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My husband was in the hospital for a while, I wasn't allowed anywhere near him either. It sucks, but it's part of the lockdown/quarantine, to protect the general population. But I agree it sucks so bad, made me so angry. He was begging to see me and said nobody seemed to care. I'm sorry for your friend and for you :( I hope his mom recovers although I realise it seems dire right now :S
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2020-03-25, 12:58 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-25, 07:58 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-26, 08:55 AM (ISO 8601)
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I feel that this whole situation is very hopeless at this point. I spoke to my friend on the phone today about an update of his mother health and she's still in critical condition and she's very close to death. I don't care if we're not related and blood. She's like a mother to me and my friend and his family is considered my family as well.
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2020-03-26, 09:56 AM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-26, 12:55 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: Personal Woes and Advice 6
I have people that I feel that way about. For all intents and purposes they are real family, and the possibility of losing them is scary.
Don't write off the mother yet, but I encourage you and your friend to be there for each other.
That's a relief. Both of you stay safe.
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2020-03-26, 01:11 PM (ISO 8601)
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2020-03-26, 01:54 PM (ISO 8601)
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It seems a small thing, I know, but I'm a little less cripplingly depressed. My friend group is at least talking to me again, so that's good. I'm still stuck thinking really mean things about myself.
I accept that professionally, I am easy to replace, though I feel like I'm pretty easy to replace in my interpersonal relationships too. Going down the list of people I know, most of them fill a particular niche as well or better than me. I guess it's good to know that people I care about will be fine without me, but I'm still stuck wondering what my place is and whether or not anyone would notice if I disappeared.
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2020-03-27, 11:39 AM (ISO 8601)
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Great news. My friend's mother is alive and well. He spoke to me on the phone a few minutes ago that his mother has woken up in the machine and she's alive and well. I'm so happy now.
Last edited by Bartmanhomer; 2020-03-27 at 11:40 AM.
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2020-03-27, 02:31 PM (ISO 8601)
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